I don't know what is eating at me, but I am so grumpy. I'm really irritable. Little things are annoying me so much. I have this knot in my chest and feel overwhelmed by this anger, and I don't even know where it's coming from.
Nothing has changed in the major situation I have been in for the last several months. No one has done anything different. No more moves have been made. No more words have been said.
Yet for the past two weeks I have just been all around angry. Angry at the world again. Am I stuck on the Angry-Go-Round? I don't even know what I'm angry about. I'm just so....ARGH!
Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. --Ephesians 4:31I am trying, Lord, but I don't even know where it's coming from. Please just cleanse me of this desire to hate everything and everyone. Please relax my body, my mind, and my heart. Loosen my clenched jaw and release my furrowed brow. Help me to take deep breaths and feel good. Fill me with your love and let it pour out of me. Make it fill me so much that there is no room for anger, resentment, irritability. During this time, help me to keep my mouth shut. Let nothing flow from me but your love. Let no one see how dark I am inside right now.
I have come so far in the last five months and I feel it all slipping away because of the last few weeks where I have just felt so negative. I can't let that happen. I won't.
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